The reason why I started this blog..

as my search feels a bit more alive as without a blog.

I am 37 years old, living in Amsterdam and am single at the time. I have always expressed myself in written words since I was young. I love to express the words straight from my heart.

I find it extremely hard not to have a loved one near me with whom I can share my intimate thoughts with. My excitement, my anxieties, my hope, my love and all of my feelings inside me while being busy with this journey. Fortunately I am blessed with many dear friends in my life.

It’s hard not to have my total family supporting me with this. My brother, cousin and his wife do fortunately, and I love them to bits and pieces for their unconditional love and support. I need it.

My dad doesn’t support me with this search, he thinks it’s unnecessary because I won’t find anything according to him so why even try. That is his statement.

That is also why I have taken my distance towards my mum and dad at the moment. I have not been in touch with them since March. I don’t know if it’s a good thing to do but this means the world to me and for him not to support me, despite of what he thinks, hurts a lot.

It’s ok. I will do this on my own.

This is my life, my search, my past and my future.

About elinexplores

Persian Soul in Dutch Life. Flying down to earth.
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1 Response to The reason why I started this blog..

  1. M. says:

    *Hug* I think you are very, very brave. And I truly hope that you will succeed in your search!
    It must be difficult to take your distance from your mum and dad, I hope they will understand some day. Maybe your dad is afraid to lose you?
    This is your life, and I am reading you for a long time now and I feel how important this is for you. I wish you all the luck. And if you need it, just write here.
    Lots of love,
    M. (Ikke)

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