as my search feels a bit more alive as without a blog.
I am 37 years old, living in Amsterdam and am single at the time. I have always expressed myself in written words since I was young. I love to express the words straight from my heart.
I find it extremely hard not to have a loved one near me with whom I can share my intimate thoughts with. My excitement, my anxieties, my hope, my love and all of my feelings inside me while being busy with this journey. Fortunately I am blessed with many dear friends in my life.
It’s hard not to have my total family supporting me with this. My brother, cousin and his wife do fortunately, and I love them to bits and pieces for their unconditional love and support. I need it.
My dad doesn’t support me with this search, he thinks it’s unnecessary because I won’t find anything according to him so why even try. That is his statement.
That is also why I have taken my distance towards my mum and dad at the moment. I have not been in touch with them since March. I don’t know if it’s a good thing to do but this means the world to me and for him not to support me, despite of what he thinks, hurts a lot.
It’s ok. I will do this on my own.
This is my life, my search, my past and my future.