His wife called my friends in Tehran yesterday. To check when the deadline is and she told them he’s thinking about it every day and wishes it is 21st of May already.
Strange not to be able to give him a call and support him myself.
It would be a different world if I speak Farsi.
Much closer and far more natural.
If I could talk to him, I’d like to say;
Dear Ali Akhbar,
Since the day you are in my life, I am thinking of you too.
Would it be really possible for me not to find my birth mother first, but my birth father…
I have been thinking of my birth mother quite a lot during my life.
I once visited a man who can read your life by massaging your back. He’s called Mr. Big, he was the first person who talked about my father.. He opened my eyes right then and there as he told me I look like my birth dad from the inside. At that moment I felt ashamed of the fact I never thought about the father in a positive way. I always kind of blamed the father, I thought he never wanted the pregnancy, that I was a huge mistake and could not be seen. I cried when I heard positive things about my birth father for the first time.. I am a very emotional person and to be honest.. I really hope I will get a positive answer when Docter W. calls me to tell if your DNA matches with mine. I want to be able to paint my past. My existence. The reason why.
Yesterday I watched ‘Spoorloos’ a programm about adoptees meeting their birth family, and one adoptee from South Korea compared her life as follows: It is like I have been living on batteries, and ever since I found my birth father, I am connected again by the power point. I love the metaphor she uses! It is so true.
I love to be connected again. I love to be Aghdas, your daughter, Ali Akhbar. I truely hope I am. I will let you know as soon as I hear the news. I will call everyone who’s involved with my search to Find Farideh. I am grateful you responded and for being open about your past. I would love to meet you.