Amsterdam, 8 March 2005

Change

Changing takes a lot of energy, each day it bites in you
You are getting sore and you want to it to stop biting you
Because the wound gets bigger and all of a sudden it leaves a huge gap
You are facing the edge right in front of you but you are not sure what to do

Not being able to talk about it cause everybody is too caught up with their own life
Needing to talk to so many friends still, having so much responsibility
But not enough time, I am out of time at this point,
there is no time left anymore

But you know what the hard thing about all of this that you have bills to pay
So you need to keep working all the time, I am so longing for a break
For the last 7 years I have been working, its too much and too hard
I definitely need to make a change and for once think about myself now and

not making excuses to keep on going like this.

-Farideh-