Today I got an e-mail from Ancestry that my DNA matches are ready to see.
And also my origin. It is a exciting moment to see my new matches… 5 matches of people who are my 4th – 6th cousin.. (still very far away)  of 209 matches.

According to Ancestry my origin is:
80% Iran / Persia
10% Central Asia
8 %  Turkey & the Caucasus
2 %  Northern India

So I consider myself Persian unless proven otherwise. The whole Iraqi / Kurdish thing is fine though I just don’t know anything really.

On the other hand, I do realize that the only solution will be a match in a DNA data bank probably to reconnect with my birth family…

Iran is just so immense big and there are so many Iranians.  I don’t know what to believe anymore. I am tired. Just like to focus on myself inwards instead of on myself outwards. Searching is tiring, chasing a ghost it feels like. I don’t want to ping-pong with my feelings. I am a bit emotional I guess. Lockdown and being alone most of the time makes it all a bit harder than normal.