A few posters of Finding Farideh

#findingfarideh #findingfaridehNL


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Toen en nu

22 jaar en 44 jaar oud..

heb toen een interview gedaan over mijn 2 baantjes in de studio in Aalsmeer. Bardame & en kabelaar. Dit waren gouden tijden voor TV en entertainment. Ik weet nog dat ik in het restaurant werkte en dat opeens rond het middaguur het hele Nederlands elftal kwam lunchen.  Zoveel mannen die opeens voor me stonden, probeer dan maar eens niet te blikken of blozen. In die tijd was ik jong, stil, schuw en had veel angsten. Ik had een flink muurtje die ik vaker wel dan niet om me heen had in die tijd. Ik had nog geen zelf onderzoek gedaan.
Ik weet wel dat ik de enige was met 2 baantjes, en dat het in de horeca het bijna niet done was dat ik ook op de vloer werkte. Daar trok ik me niks van aan, ik vond beiden leuk. De ene baan was op hakken met zwart rokje wit bloesje en de ander was op gympies en zwarte kleding met diensten van langer dan 12 uur.
De studio was het centrum waar velen hun carrieres hebben opgestart. Wat een tijd! Niet te geloven. Samen met R. en M. achter de bar. Super team.
En ook uiteraard het bedienen van de grote baas, de heer van den Ende en al zijn gasten, in zijn mooie grote kantoor, links als je binnenkwam bij de hoofdingang. Het begin van de musicals in Nederland..
Mooi verschil en veel gebeurd. Heel veel mee gemaakt daar wat een enerverende wereld was dat toen. Bruisend.


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Finding Farideh in Nederland -eindelijk-

Het wordt tijd dat Finding Farideh gepromoot wordt in Nederland.

Daar ik de enige van de crew/cast hier ben, komt het op mij aan.

Ik kan alle hulp gebruiken en ga eerst eens Instagram beetje kijken wie ik kan taggen.
Sommige mensen ken ik nog van vroeger uit de periode van de TV Studio Joop van den Ende, of van mijn periode bij IP (RTL) of van de VPRO, reclame wereld of Camalot.

Ik vind het echt moeilijk om aandacht te vragen, maar het is voor Finding Farideh en de film en het project verdient alle aandacht dus ik moet niet zo moeilijk doen. Hahaha.
Heb het inmiddels zo lang uitgesteld dat het NU of NU en NU is.

Mocht je me willen mailen dan kan dat altijd op mail2farideh@gmail.com

Ik zou zeggen, kijk de film en dan ben ik heel benieuwd wat je ervan vindt.
En als je vragen hebt, ik ben hier om ze te beantwoorden.

Eline Farideh

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Sunday sweet music

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Shamanism and the effects of singing in a female circle..

Ten years ago I met Sonja and by meeting Sonja I came in contact with shamanism.
At the heart of the Shamanic path is the contract to live in harmony with nature, self, community and spirit. The Medicine Wheel, or Wheel of Life, is represented by the four directions: it symbolizes the cycle of life, without beginning or end, and provides guidance for living. While the Medicine Wheel varies by culture, it universally honors the core belief that all things on earth are living and all things are interconnected. The four directions, as taught through Native American knowledge, are deeply embedded with symbolism and guidance for transformation.

I started singing in Sonja’s female circle and discovered how it feels to open my throat chakra. To use my voice out loud. To ground first in meditation, to welcome our ancestors, spirits and power animals to the circle, to connect and to honor the east, south, west and north. To honour the directions, Wheel of Life and the powerful meaning behind the directions. I learned to be open, warm and neutral, accept all that is. Not being judgmental was a relief for me, letting go of my opinions. Singing and the tradition of Shamanism gave me the strength in myself which I needed to start searching for my roots. It gave me the power to feel my own worth, to open up, to connect and it gives me roots and wings. It gives me stars in my eyes of love, of joy, of feeling free. Especially in a female circle, the resonance of the vocals together can touch you in ways you can not explain, that is just pure magic right then and there. Singing is healing for your body, mind and soul.

The Shamanic ancient way of living and views speak to me more than any other way. It is part of me as how it feels. This is home coming and it completely resonates with me wholeheartedly.
I also noticed in me that I did not write about it a lot as I think people will not get what I am writing. Though like minded people will understand and therefor I would love to share this as it is such an important part of my life. My spiritual being and awakening.

I had a huge interest in spirituality at a young age.. Basically when I started going to the library to get books, I became interested in books about this subject. My parents didn’t believe this stuff at all, they are atheists. I could not believe they do not believe in more than meets the eye. I felt pretty strong about this back then and still do.
My friend G and I at high school even did a presentation about spirituality and received a 9 for it, as everything we told was completely new for everyone in class including the teacher. My first and only 9 for a presentation, we were so proud!

I remember at the age of 22 years old I saw an add in the newspaper about yoga, I was so intrigued by the description of yoga, that I had to go. When I met the yoga teacher Inge, I looked into her eyes and we had a moment of crystal recognition. So definitely someone whom I met before.. from a past life. Doing yoga and doing the course Avatar was to me eye-opening to all there is and more.

I honor all the people who come into my life and be part of it, even if it is for a few moments. I am grateful for every human being I have met and every experience I gain. I will never forget the way we connect, even if time passes I can recall our connection if it was yesterday. As time is an illusion in the spirit world. The same with all the animals I have encountered. They play a huge roll in my life as well and nature is where I feel best. And the same with all the people who passed over to the other side. This deep feeling of respect, to be alive this lifetime and to be humble for all I receive. To undergo the teachings of this lifetime.
I think being in the orphanage for 10 long months was an experience in my life that made me conscious of what life is about. It is about connecting with other people and sharing moments with each other, interact with each other and feeling connected. Alone is just alone in this world. Being alone can be meaningful for yourself if you know you will be connected again later on. As the baby I was of 6 months old, 10 months must have been the feeling of a lifetime.. without being sure of the future. Faith took over with the help of my guardian angels. I believe my spirit choosed my Dutch parents on forehand in order for me to learn some life lessons. On which I am still working on. The beauty of letting go and understand the bigger picture is massive.

The experience of life has always been the reason to keep going. Even when life paused for me and the darkest of dark side I was facing, my curiosity never stopped. Though the suffering was immense and there were moments in several stages of my life I thought of suicide and understood why people would do this. The inner suffering makes you want to stop it all at times. The inner heart pain can be so huge that you don’t see your own horizon anymore, you are facing the mountains and you are crawling on the floor without energy without connection to anyone to save you. I carried my burdens. Life exhausted me. How am I supposed to walk and talk… let alone smile again I wondered. Life felt raw, bitter and so disappointing at many times. I knew I would not live a ‘normal’ life like others. I knew I was different due to my past, origin and feelings who came with this. And I know now it is possible.. to grow and to heal. And to leave the mountains behind me, better said, they are part of me though they do not define me anymore. The mountains have become flowing rivers or beautiful waterfalls. I can go back to the pain and suffering in a second. I can feel the feeling of utter heartache.
I am a happy, joyful person by heart and nature. Both are in balance right now. I am aware of my triggers too. As I once wrote I can cry and laugh about the pain in my veins and still be happy.

I choose life. To the fullest. I owe that to myself.

At this stage in life I am clearly in the surrender phase. Surrender to the Great Spirit, the divine plan of the Universe. In my dreams I asked to meet one of my guardian angel as I have clearly heard his voice before though never met him. The other week I got to meet him and when I jumped in his arms (we were liquid / energy) I surrender myself completely. With trust, with faith, with love, with all these feelings of safety.. I surrender myself in that moment and we became one in energy. It was so interesting and the power of that feeling of surrendering was immense, overwhelming powerful and so strong. I let go of my own control, my insecurities and let them lead the way. We are all energy and connected to one another.

We all have a purpose in life even though you don’t know it yet, we all have one. I for a long time did not know my purpose in life. I am still in my journey to work out mine.

And ever since Finding Farideh is released three years ago, first in Iran then the world and then the Netherlands.. I feel as a new born with so much love inside for me and for all around me. All of a sudden I feel the warmth in my heart and it is like a heater or better said a wild fire and I let the loving energy flow, I feel so good. So loved. So in love with every moment. I feel that I am in the right place and time. In the right now.

‘I am loved, I am worthy and I do belong’ has been my mantra the past 10 years. Those words made me cry for a few years and it took me a long time to actually say it and feel it, especially the last one about belonging.

Sonja passed on her wisdom about Shamanism to me and I will always be grateful, joyful and humble for this gift. Sonja is a mentor and dear friend for me and and Angel of the Universe to us all.

I have grown so much, and healed myself for the sake of the love I always felt for myself and for life.

I am here. I take my place and space now in the universe.

In a loving state of mind. And love & honor you for all you are to me and love & honor me for all I am to myself and to you at the same time.

Altissimo Corazon.


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Yesterday was a very special day as an Iranian adoptee living in Europe was reunited with her Iranian birth family by receiving the results of a DNA test!!!!

So happy for her, she has a huge family now in Iran.
What a blessing, and also the re-start of getting to know her birth family..
which obviously also will be the beginning of a complex situation.

When I found out I immediately called her and congratulated her as this is like a miracle.. so magic does happen!

Brilliant news…

With love,

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Philautia / Love of the Self

Introducing a new post series ‘Philautia’ / ‘Love of the Self’

Herewith an interesting documentary Samadhi Movie made by Daniel Schmidt

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7 years ago…

Checking out my youtube video’s and I have a lot of video’s in private modus.. due to my own  critic voice. I am my biggest criticus in the world.

My critic voice says… ‘I am whispering why..’ ‘Some sentences are grammar wise not ok at all’ ‘It’s way too long…’ and I was confused of how to pronounce Farideh so shame, fear and embarrassment are taking over and I’d put the video on private modus.

Though on the other hand: I love myself. I think I am so cute. I love my smile and eyes. And yes I love my voice too.

So this video was recorded in the first year of my search (2013) and at that moment I was still searching by myself and Kourosh and Azadeh (directors FF) were not in my life yet.

Proud of who I am and where I am at now..

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Youtube account FindFarideh

So many accounts nowadays I sometimes don’t know where to upload what..
I have been neglecting my youtube account.. so herewith the video I made for
Asian World Film Festival Online Cinema ‘Best of the Fest’.


Your chance to see Finding Farideh at the 21-22 of August 2020..!
Get your tickets NOW: https://awff-finding-farideh.eventbrite.com

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Journeyman Pictures

At the moment I am busy making my own website, actually busy with 3 which is a lot. I should focus on one and then continue because this is too much. The first one I am working on is elinefaridehkoning.com.

At the premiere in Iran I noticed that my name was not written anywhere on the flyers and invitations (let alone the posters)… That is something I can not comprehend at all, so I told them I want to be on the flyer and invitations with my full name; Eline Farideh Koning. I deserve that a 100%. It is not about my ego, it is about the validation to the hard work I have put into as well. I have been involved with every step we took. The crew is mentioned, why not myself. So I got the title of ‘Narrator’ which to me didn’t matter what title, as long as my full name was visible too. Equality.. always been a warrior for equality of treatment, which started at an early age in my family.
Every time I see a website with only “Farideh” I get the chills as Farideh can be anyone…
so now I came across an important website for Finding Farideh, Journeyman Pictures.
My full name was not visible on this website. I contacted them and they asked me to write a short bio to introduce myself.. so I did.. have a look if you like.

Enjoy your day,

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