I just received a text message; Finding Farideh is selected for screening during the Cinéma Vérité Film Festival in Iran!! The film festival is from 10th -17th of December 2017.
I am thrilled and the feeling of acceptance feels like a victory to me! Finding Farideh will be shown in December in Iran and will have public screenings in cinema’s all over Iran in 2018. How unbelievable cool is that!!
I am HAPPY!!!!
The MyHeritage DNA kit arrived this week. Some of my fellow adoptee friends have already done this and it is so interesting. It will show you from which countries/areas your DNA is from. So doing this DNA test today and hopefully get the results within 2 months or so.
Today or tomorrow we will hear if Finding Farideh is accepted for the film festival in Iran…! As soon as the news is out I will let you know.
PS. ‘Je suppose que nous portons tous en nous le destin de nos ancêtres.’ -Nadia Hashimi-
Over 2 weken horen we of Finding Farideh door is op het Iraanse Filmfestival Cinema Vérité en nog een leuk nieuwtje is dat de film ook ingezonden is naar het Internationaal Film Festival Rotterdam 2018. Dat zou natuurlijk te gek zijn! Op dit moment wordt de muziek gecomponeerd door Afshin Azizi.
Ik merk wel dat de spanning weer toeneemt nu de film bijna af is en het zo meteen ‘de wereld’ ingaat. Indien het in Iran in première gaat ben ik benieuwd naar de media aandacht die er aan komt want mijn doel is nog steeds dat elke Iraniër mijn verhaal kent zodat het ooit bij mijn biologische ouders aankomt. Ik las laatst een post van iemand die haar biologische moeder, haar buikmama noemde. Vind ik wel een erg mooie benaming.
In de tussentijd heb ik veel contact met Iraans geadopteerden, vorige week een dame ontmoet die ook hier in Amsterdam woont. Zo leuk is dat, want de herkenning is groot en heb direct het gevoel dat ik er weer een zusje bij heb. De groep Iraans geadopteerden op Facebook groeit met de dag. En goed nieuws want 1 van onze leden heeft afgelopen week contact gehad met zijn half zus, dus het kan zeker wel! En volgende week vliegt 1 van onze leden voor het eerst terug naar Iran en zal daar ook het weeshuis en haar dossier bekijken, ben dankbaar dat ik hen hierin kan steunen en helpen. Zo gaat iedereen achter zijn eigen bestaansrecht aan en terecht.
Onderstaande foto is gemaakt voordat ik naar de plek ging waar ik ooit gevonden ben, ik vind het een bijzonder intense foto. De foto is gemaakt door onze productie manager en vriend Shauheen Daneshfar.
PS. We lachen als we herkennen. – Simon Carmiggelt-
Unfortunately Finding Farideh is not selected for screening at the IDFA 2017.
I received the news a few weeks ago and I felt sick to my stomach when I heard the news. I couldn’t believe it and the entire day all I could think is ‘Wat errug!’. The next day I woke up with my fight-modus on and thought I am going to call them and asky why. I did and thankfully they did gave me a reason why it was not selected. It is their decision and I can not do anything about it.
So Finding Farideh will not have it’s premiere in my hometown, Amsterdam, but it will (hopefully) be showing at the Cinema Vérité in Tehran in December 2017.
All I can say is that it hurts but I came to terms with it the last few weeks.
I will organize a cinema here in Amsterdam and arrange for you to come and watch the film at some other time, that is a promise from me to you.
Find Farideh continues.
This week I showed the final edit to my parents and brother. At first my parents told me that they didn’t want to be in the film as they didn’t support me with my search, though during the filming days of Finding Farideh they changed their minds fortunately and they approved of being filmed.
So a few days ago I invited them and my brother to have dinner at my house and we watched the film together. They were very impressed! They loved seeing what I have been through as the film shows so much more details and emotions than I could ever tell in person. I feel reliefed that they approve the film. It means the world to me.
The fact that they came to my house for dinner was a big step too. I think they haven’t had dinner at my place since 8 years ago or so when we decided to see eachother only in public places or their place as having dinner at my place during that time never ended well.
So changing the negative for the positive experiences. The film has helped me in many ways to go forward again. I am more at ease and relaxed with my parents now. I feel that as a blessing as they always have done what they thought was best. I love them, despite of our different views of life or different ways of expressing ourselves. We are family.
Daily I start the day with meditation, not to fly but to feel grounded and believe it or not it helps me being balanced, focus and it empowers myself. To connect with Grandfather Sun and Mother Earth and light up the fire in my belly and to live instinctively. Basically to follow my heart. I am 41 years old, single and have no kids. A few months ago I decided to quit dating as meeting people online first is not my kind of style. It destroys everything what love is all about. People are nice to you and then they get rude without explanation, or want to be in touch with you a lot all of a sudden and at the same time they dropp you as easy as they come into your life. I am done with this superficial kind of meetings or dating for that matter. I am not searching for love anymore as I know what kind of love I deserve and I have faith in that. I feel that I am worthy of love and I will know when our eyes meet with that yet unknown person that he’s the one. Taking steps forward to make other dreams possible. Deep down I so clearly know where I want to go, it is so obvious once you realize that change is going to come! It is all about creating the life I feel happiest in and falling in love with life itself and I am feeling the butterflies chasing eachother about the desicions I am making in life. I am in love with the sun, nature and myself. Happy times!
A beautifl sunset, friends and the sea… creating magical moments is what life is about.
When you fall in love with a voice…
I can hear this version a thousand times and loving it each time I hear this.
A subway singer in NYC and his name is Michael Young. He’s an amazing singer.