Jat Khali Iran

Manoto TV broadcasted again my interview yesterday evening!

Jat Khali Iran


Thank you Manoto TV, kheili mamnoon!

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Back pocket Story

“It is up to you…

either you throw, what I just told you, in the trash bin or you put it in your back pocket.

I do not need to know which choice you will make..

Good night.” – I once said to a stranger.

an hour later:

He:  I will put it in my back pocket.

I: I know you would.

He: Really?

I: Yes otherwise I would not have given you the options.

I: I asked you not to tell me your choice.

He: I know, though the answer is positive so I thought you would like to know..

I: Your answer belongs to the future and tells another story. Good night.

And I walked off.

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Philautia / Love of the Self

“When I Am Among the Trees”

When I am among the trees,
especially the willows and the honey locust,
equally the beech, the oaks and the pines,
they give off such hints of gladness.
I would almost say that they save me, and daily.

I am so distant from the hope of myself,
in which I have goodness, and discernment,
and never hurry through the world
but walk slowly, and bow often.

Around me the trees stir in their leaves
and call out, “Stay awhile.”
The light flows from their branches.

And they call again, “It’s simple,” they say,
“and you too have come
into the world to do this, to go easy, to be filled
with light, and to shine.”

― Mary Oliver, Evidence―

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Sweet Music

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Love, love and love

My very first spiritual romantic encounter with a boy was at the island of Mallorca during summer time. Unfortunately I do not know my age.. it could be from 6 -14 years old myself, I have no clue if I would guess.. I was maybe 10 – 14 years old?  I came there each summer until I was 14 years old.

I first saw him at the sea side, I felt a super strong attraction towards him, it was something physical as well, something happened in the air and sky too, everything got more intense and warmer than before. The heat felt hotter, the colors of the sky lighted up, everything felt excitingly different in that moment of time, I could feel my own heartbeat. I could feel waves of love between him and I. My heart opened. My eyes glitter.
Who is this boy?!

– That night the evening was perfect, it was a hot hot summer day and hot evening and the stars were so bright. I remember looking at the stars and the moon, and feeling connected to the universe, and wishing we would meet again. Somewhere in the world. That was my profound wish that night I sent to the stars and moon. That we would meet again. And that I could enjoy that incredible unexplainable intense feeling of oneness again on all levels. With someone here on Earth. –

I can not remember other details, only that he left the beach before we did. And once we drove up the road and parked at the restaurant right at the road with an amazing view, I can draw it if I wanted too.. and we walked in, I noticed the attraction again. There he was. With his family. They were sitting on two tables and he was sitting with other boys. On the other table it was probably his parents and a girl and another girl maybe, maybe another adult too. I think one of the girls celebrated her birthday as she got a dessert with candles or fire on top of it. Anyway I wanted to go up and talk to him after our dinner, I might even have mentioned it to my parents and brother.. Then he and his family walked out of the restaurant when we had not finished our dinner and dessert yet.. I didn’t dare to ran after him, I think I did walk up to the parking lot, though they were already gone and left with two cars quickly. I asked the waiter which language they spoke or if he knew where they were coming from. For all I know, he could maybe spent his holidays here too each summer!

It was my first romantic, spiritual emotional physical, encounter all in one it seemed. I was very much aware of what it did with my body, mind, heart and soul. A grand feeling of self acceptance too which was a rare and new feeling to me at that age. A feeling of trust and destiny. I knew there was more to the eye than we could see. I felt it that day with him.
I felt deeply humble and special to the bone to experience this too. It was an epiphany to me. The Universe showed me her power of attraction to another human being in that moment of time.

With a lot of love.
And trust in faith.

Alta mente repostum.

The universe guides us through life.
We all do.
We all are.
Every day.

Love and wings,


PS. The love of liberty is the love of others. The love of power is the love of ourselves.
-William Hazlitt-

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Amsterdam, 11 december 2007


Your lips are moving
Sound divides in the air
The one I breath
Words and reaction
Do not come along
In my language
You don’t speak

Trust turns into pain
Confirmation or a
Translation to make
True what you don’t do
Time heals dark places
Send me only
Words I can trust


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To be heard

Amsterdam, 29 december 2007

To be heard

My secret place
lies within me
this sacred spot
belongs to me
thoughts are all
inside of me
my mouth is the
bridge to my words
my voice is waiting
to let them be heard
the crossing awaits
to be expressed
into the sound
of my own voice

the power of
sound is connected
to my soul
I’d rather stay
inside but
I do want to
break free
to get my
lips moving
to produce
a beautiful
sound which is
worthy to me
in my mind


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To be reborn, inside your light

Last week I started singing this beautiful song/mantra, which we sing in our female circle, and I keep singing this:

“To be reborn
Inside your light

It is the greatest gift that you could give to me
and I thank you I thank you I thank you”

Songs pop up in my head at the right time with the right words…  That is soul work right then and there.

Thank you Great Spirit, Spirit Animal, Guardian Angels, Ancestors and Angels of Light & Love for guiding me through life and your unconditional support, love and light you bring to my soul.

I am humble to receive all.

With love,

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New beginnings

Tomorrow a new chapter in my life will start. So much looking forward to this.
In the meantime I am spoiling myself tonight with Stilton and a bit of Port as dessert, a perfect combination. The grapes this time are still in the store.
Hahaha just like candles, oh no all candles are sold out here in NL. I am never out of candlelight, and now I am for the first time in my life.. well for everything a first right.
Yesterday we heard the lockdown will extend for another month…  The last time I saw my girl friends as a group we were in Anvers (BE) last year in February for a bachelorette celebration. Dining and dancing in a Mexican restaurant, no signs of Corona at that time. Seems decades ago. Carefree. I am still carefree in my heart. I don’t do fears. I had so many fears in my life that I decided at 30 no more fears. Fears are exhausting and if you fear you forget about being your wonderful self. It is always fear vs love. Love is expanding and feels so much better, wider and warmer. So cheers to my wonderful self and to new beginnings. And cheers to LOVE. Let go of fear and have faith in the Universe. I do.

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So after my high energy boost of the full moon at Wednesday, Thursday became an interesting day of new people entering my life..

Thursday I was approached by an Iranian lady living in Europe who is searching her (half) sister…  she thinks it might be me according to my age, my looks and her knowledge that the baby was adopted to Europe.
I told her I will help her find her sister. Happy to embark on her journey in finding her sister! Only DNA can tell us the truth.

There are probably around 1500 Iranian adoptees living in Europe. Exciting times as she ordered a DNA kit right away after our conversation on Friday. So hopefully by the end of March we will find out if she is connected with one of us adoptees.

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