RTL Nieuws Online

Afgelopen zondagochtend om 08.00 kwam het artikel online, dit is de link:

Klik hier om het te lezen.

Met dank aan RTL Nieuws Online en Esther Maas.

Dank aan een ieder die heeft gereageerd, dank aan de mensen die mij een persoonlijk bericht hebben gestuurd naar aanleiding van dit artikel.

Ik kan alleen zeggen… de film zal je meenemen op mijn reis en laten zien hoe Iraanse families leven met een verlies van hun kind of zus en de hoop die opbloeit als ze mij ontmoeten. De liefde en het verdriet komen duidelijk naar voren. Ze vertellen over het moment dat ze de beslissing moesten maken om de baby te vondeling te leggen en waarom. De beslissing waar ze voor de rest van hun leven mee moeten leven.

Zahra, Fatemeh en Aghdas zijn de meisjes waar het hier overgaat.

En in gedachte nam ik Farideh mee terug naar Iran, naar de plek waar mijn geschiedenis op schrift ooit begon..


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komt er een artikel online over mijn zoektocht en Finding Farideh…!

Ik ben morgenochtend aan het werk dus zal na mijn dienst de link hier posten.
Best spannend weer om in de publiciteit te komen met mijn verhaal.

Maar ik ben er klaar voor, de film is nu bijna af..! We krijgen in oktober bericht of de film is toegelaten bij de IDFA, dus dat wordt ongelooflijk spannend. Twee jaar na de crowdfunding campagne en opnames breekt er een nieuw hoofdstuk aan.

Voor nu, geniet van je weekend!


PS. De waarde van een daad of een poging ligt niet in haar gevolg, maar in haar beweegreden. -Nellie van Knol-

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RIP Tayebeh

The first person who responded to my article in the newspaper was Tayebeh.
A mother of 11 children.
She was married 3 times.
I met her 5 times in Iran.
She was convinced I was her daughter.
She held my hand at the DNA agency.
Tayebeh passed away in April 2017.

Dear Tayebeh-joon, grateful to have met you and spend time with you in Iran.
You are a strong, fierce, loving soul and you had to deal with losing your child without your permission. You suffered a great deal because of this and the pain never left you.
May your soul rest in peace now. I wish I could have showed you Finding Farideh but God decided otherwise. Jat khali.
With all my love,

Tayebeh on the right, her 7th child Zahra on the left.

PS. The mother is everything – she is our consolation in sorrow, our hope in misery and our strenght in weakness. She is the source of love, mercy, sympathy and forgiveness. He who loses his mother loses a pure soul who blesses and guards him constantly.
-Kahlil Gibran-

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Final edit

First of all apologies for the silence at FindFarideh…

By coming back to the Netherlands and being on my own again I could reflect again and it took some time to manifest the changes within me.

I didn’t find my biological family unfortunately.
There I finally said it. I did not find my Iranian family but I did find the Iranian part within me.

And as I noticed and still notice is that I have this huge urge to write in my own language too. I guess that is only natural… when you are busy with a once-in-a-lifetime project.

But first some updates and facts about the documentary:
– We shot 150 hours (!!) of footage during November and December 2015.
– We used transfer by foot, bike, car, bus, boat, tram, train, plane and taxi. The helicopter was cancelled.. hahaha no just kidding.
– We travelled from Amsterdam (the Netherlands) via Tehran to Mashhad (Iran).
– The filmcrew is Iranian, I am Dutch.
– We laughed a lot. I cried a lot too.
– My website is officially not available in Iran, just like Facebook and Twitter.
– Instagram is allowed in Iran… you can find me there too, search for findfarideh.

The final edit was completed two weeks ago by our great editor Hamid Najafi Rad and the directors Azadeh Moussavi and Kourosh Ataee in Tehran Iran.

The final edit!!!! I am so excited again!! And proud as well and humble to be able to experience this because of you!

You… the ones who made Finding Farideh possible by crowdfunding, you know who you are.

Tomorrow I will do the last voice-over recording here in Amsterdam… and then it is time for the music composer and my friend Billy who will do the color grading.

We have already send our final edit to the International Documentary Filmfestival Amsterdam (IDFA) and now we have to wait and be patience again to see if they find it worthy enough to show Finding Farideh during the IDFA 2017 (15 / 26 November).

It would be the greatest honour for me and the crew to show you Finding Farideh in my hometown Amsterdam, only if they let me. So fingers crossed!!

FindFarideh continues,

with love,

. When you acknowledge all parts of the heart, love remains.  -Farideh-

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My journey to Iran..

Finding Farideh has happened. I came back in the Netherlands, straight into day to day life. Work and winter time. Not my favorite time of the year.

Happy to have the best month of the year ahead of me… May! So now I see everything clearly again and I have so many ideas and so much stories to tell you about my journey of coming home.

It didn’t feel as my story anymore as everything was taped and they are now busy with the edit, it became a project with others. It is out of my hands it felt now I am here and they are there.

Though it is my journey and my blog so I am going to write about my journey and show you pictures as well. I need to tell you about the great experience I had because of you. You deserve it and I do too.

It feels like a weight has fallen off my shoulders after deciding this, hahaha. It’s the right thing to do. Find Farideh turns into Finding Farideh.

Find Farideh behind the scenes continues.
Stay tuned,

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PS. Moving forward to reach new dreams. -Farideh-

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Beautiful Khorasan, Iran

After our first day of filming Finding Farideh in Amsterdam, Mohamad showed me this short video which was made by him. It is about the province I was abandoned. In the evening we arrived back at my house and were preparing ourselves a meal, we were all happy and high spirited. Mohamad showed me this video and the intense heart feeling music and these magical images of Iran are part of me. It suddenly touched my years of longing.. I started crying because I felt the Persian part in me burning. Six pairs of Iranian eyes were staring at me and they all stopped talking. I joked around that this would happen a lot during our journey of Finding Farideh so they better get used to it.

Enjoy this beautiful video made by Mohamad Hadadi.. our DOP of Finding Farideh!

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JAN Magazine

JAN Magazine (nr. 3 – maart 2016) ligt nu in de winkels met een artikel over crowdfunding en Finding Farideh! In het artikel kan je ook het resultaat lezen van de DNA testen met de 3 families..


Tekst is van Léonie de Boer en fotografie van Brenda van Leeuwen.


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